Stop this train

I beat my first video game yesterday, Trace Memory for DS. It's a really good game, if you like mysteries and puzzles -- it's sorta Myst-like, though not that hard, really. I only got stuck a couple of times, and once I put it aside for a while, the solution came to me. I might go back and play it again sometime, though, 'cause I must've missed one little unimportant thing -- there are two endings, really happy and kinda happy, and I only got kinda happy. I must've not picked up something that I didn't need anyway (but if you don't get every single thing, you don't get the really happy ending).

I went shopping with Joe the other day to spend my Christmas gift cards. I got boring, un-fun stuff I won't be able to use for a long time, apartment stuff I needed: dishes, glasses and a Christmas tree for the place I hope to have someday. At this rate, it won't be this year. *sigh*

I wish I could take a vacation. I'm just so stressed out lately. My heartbeat's even been keeping up -- it's been all super-fast a lot lately. I just wish I could take a week and just do nothing, just lie around, cuddle with Joe, watch TV or a movie, just relax and have nothing on my mind but enjoying the moment, nothing intruding into my little bubble of calm. Monday night was nice, though. Joe and I spent the night lying on his bed, cuddled up together watching TV. I needed that. I could just lie there, close my eyes and listen to his heartbeat. There's just so much on my mind, though... even then, I found myself pushing stressful thoughts out of my head, 'cause they kept trying to creep in and keep me from enjoying my time relaxing with Joe.