Can't haul myself back on the wagon

I was so bad today.

See, I've not been doing well sticking to the diet since I went off it last month. I got up today and had a bowl of cereal, that's it. This is what I was doing in the beginning, eating cereal for breakfast and dinner every day.

But today, I had my cereal, I went to work, and by 6, I was starving. They were getting pizza at work (long day for a lot of people), and by the time it came, I scarfed down like three pieces, super-fast, totally starving. That wasn't even it, either -- I had a few more pieces as the night went on (still a little hungry, then just trying to finish it up so I could throw the box out).

Shameful, I know. I did this for the past week or so, though. I've been making myself have just a bowl of cereal for breakfast, and by dinnertime (my midday meal), I'm so starving that I eat really badly (though not usually quite as badly as today). I used to be able to do this, just a few months ago, and I'd be a tiny bit hungry sometimes, but not starving. I don't get it. I want to do this, I do -- I have four months (less now, more like three and change) to lose 16 pounds, and dammit, I want to make it there so badly. But the diet is conspiring against me, even when I try to get back on it and be good. And exercise, well, that isn't happening. I told myself that it was alright if I quit using those exercise bands, 'cause the weather's getting nice, I can do things outside now, but the truth is that there's nothing to do outside and no time to do it in, anyway, when I only have two days off and they fill up so fast.

Ugh. I suck.